Please watch this!

At least I have my Frye boots.

Don't worry.
I know things will be OK because I am doing my best, I am progressing, I am praying and I am doing what I feel is right.

Plus today I am wearing my favorite boots.  This year my favorite thing about fall is that I can wear my favorite boots again.  I have to refrain from snuggling them at night.

They are just the classic Frye Harness boots.  I have wanted them for years and Clint bought them for me last Christmas.

I lover them.

Today I am wearing them with skinny jeans but they go with skirts and pants and swimsuits.  (I find any excuse to wear them unless it is too hot outside.)

Here is Frye's website if you want to lover them too.
But be careful, you will become addicted to Frye boots and want every style.

Therapy #2

I like therapy.
It really helps me.

Yesterday I had a horrible, depressed day.  Things just get heavy and then overwhelming.  Yesterday all I could think was the gossip that ensues when a life event like this happens.  All I could think about were the friends that speak to friends that speak to friends who attempt to tell MY story but butcher it because they have not actually heard my story from my lips.  So then it becomes gossip full of assumptions and guesses and opinions and conclusions.

On my regular, logical day I realize I can't control this and who cares because I know my truth and it doesn't matter what others are saying but on hard days things like gossip become another thing for me to bear and it gets much too heavy and I slip into depression.
The thing I hate most about depression is the questioning of every choice in my life even down to the clothes I wear.  It is exhausting.

So luckily today was therapy day and it helped a lot.  I didn't even talk about all the gossip heaviness.  It just helps to talk to someone and tell them all the nitty gritty secrets of my life and to be completely honest about who I am and what I have done and am doing.  It helps so much.  She repeats back to me what I say so I can hear my voice and helps me to sort through emotions and gives me ideas on how to question things so I can figure stuff out.

Love it.

I am feeling better today.
I am feeling good that I am on a positive path and trying to progress and trying to be better and trying to figure out me.  
I feel the importance of it.

I just try not to look ahead of me because the road ahead of me is treacherous and long.  I try to just keep my eyes on where I am placing my feet today.

I hope you all have a good day today.  Take a moment and be grateful for where you are today and that you are not me.

Love.

I lover Lalaloopsy dolls.

I love these little dolls.
I think I love them more than Eva.
OK, I know I love them more.
I saw them last year and wanted them but thought Eva was too little but duh, I wasn't too little.

Is anyone else enjoying them?

My therapy begins.

I found a therapist and have started therapy.
I like her (she is a she) and I'm so glad it worked out because I liked her price a lot too.
I think therapy is worth the money even if it is expensive but I found someone I like and she has a really reasonable price so I am double happy about it.  


I feel myself slipping into bouts of depression and with all the emotions going on in my life right now I know I need some help.
I write this because I am not ashamed that I need therapy.  I think everyone needs it and that it is really helpful if you find the right therapist that fits for you.


What I am hoping to get out of it is insight, answers, aha moments (thanks Oprah), help and emotional peace.  I look forward to having someone who is completely un-invested in my life help me.  Plus, I get to talk about myself for an hour.  Who doesn't like doing that?  


Apart of me is a little scared at what I will discover but I am mostly relieved and feel like it is about damn time.  I have finally started something I probably should have started a long time ago.  


May I just say if you have thought about therapy just do it.  Don't wait until it is really, really bad to be motivated.  That just seems silly.  
Believe me I have amashzing hindsight!


Love.

BTW

My eye is on the road to a full recovery although I have to wear my glasses for a few more weeks.  


There is some scarring on my cornea from my past episodes but it is peripheral and this latest episode looks like minimal scarring.


And apparently we all have herpes or will get it eventually but it is a genetic thing if it decides to flare up.  So everyone can stop with the herpes jokes.


Also check out my new favorite blog.  It is written by my 8 year old niece.  I love it.

Love.

Don't forget! October is Month of Fun!

Month of Fun is here!  What are you doing with yourself?

We started off our month with a trip to Yellowstone!
Yellowstone holds a special place in my heart. I went there annually growing up so I was excited to take the girls.  It is sort of my nature Disneyland and it seems just as expensive.  Everything in the park is way overpriced.  A meal for me and my girls is around $16.  Next time I will bring a cooler of food.  But let's get on to the pictures.

 Scarlett at Yellowstone Lake.

 Eva with her grandparents.

Eva sticking her head out the sun roof.  

On the side roads she did this and had so much fun.

My favorite geyser Young Hopeful.

It just tries so hard.

All the sights and smells of Yellowstone take me back to my childhood and remind me of my grandparents.

My grandparents are photographers and went to Yellowstone at least 10 times a year with their trailer in tow.  There were a couple times they were even attacked my some elk.  

I was there during the Yellowstone fire of '88 and remember the way the sun looked through the smoke.  We happened to be there on 8/8/88.

One of my favorite things has always been the boiling mud pots.  I just think they are so cool.

We went a few times during the winter on snowmobiles until they stopped letting that happen but Yellowstone in the winter might be the best way to see the park.  

On this last trip we went over Bear Tooth Highway.  It was amazing and gorgeous.  It is a wonder how they built it back in the '30's.  

 Here is Bear Tooth Highway.  Apparently you are not a true biker (motorcycle) unless you have driven this.

Here is the credit to the picture and the list of roads you need to ride if you ride motorcycles.  

Bear Tooth is #1.

Here is a picture of the Bear Tooth.  

Credit goes to the name in th corner but I couldn't find anything on that.

My sweet girls.

Have you been up to the mountains to see the fall leaves?

If you don't have mountains sorry about that.  They are gorgeous!

The best news I have had in a really long time!

Arrested Development is on its way back to TV.  I may just have to get cable so that I can DVR it.
Check out the news here.
Seriously I am so happy!

Thanks to Alicia for letting me know.

Love these girls and welcome to fall.

I am lucky that I get to spend so much time with these two.

I always have so much fun.

Today I thought about one of my favorite days.

Here are some pictures of it.

Seriously, I can't contain my laughter when I look at these pictures.
They make me so happy.
I also better mention that Michelle handmade her gloves.  

Something I lover.

I lover California Baby.
I love the calming line and the smell of it.

This is my latest and greatest buy.
Bubbles in the bath and safe bubbles to boot!  What more could you want???
My kids love it and so do I.

Hot tip #1:  You have to tap, tap, tap the excess soap off the wand to get really good bubbles.  It is a lot thicker than regular bubbles.

Hot tip #2:  California baby is not just for babies.  It is great for those sensitive areas (wink).