The icing on my cake.

To top off the wonderful events going on in my life I have an eye infection.

I wish it was just good old pink eye but it's  not.

It is good old herpes.

Yes, I have herpes in my eye.

I have sores on my cornea people!

I have no idea how I got it but the first time I got it was about 12 years ago and it reoccurs every now and again.  I think it is stress induced this time.

It is extremely painful and very sensitive to light.

Don't worry, I am on medication and closing my eyes a lot.

As an added bonus I must wear my glasses for 10 days and try not to wear makeup so as not to cross contaminate.  Yay!

Here is the only good picture I could get of me and my glasses.  

Basically I do not look good.

And my forehead looks gigantic! 

I think I will wash my hair tonight so I can wear it down tomorrow.

Feel free to make Harry Potter jokes but please know I have probably heard them already.

Teenie, weenie update.

I have moved into a little house.
It is a bit lonely and depressing.
What else could it be really.

I have a few seasons of Friends and I pick a random disc and pop it into the DVD player for background noise. It makes me smile and laugh, I love Friends.  One of my favorite episodes is the Thanksgiving with Brad Pitt.  I love the teenie weenie!

I make sure I have Mexican Coke in my fridge and I discovered brownie bites in the refrigerated section near the cookie dough.  I tell you they are very good.

I don't think I will be able to get cable or internet.  Goodbye to Project Runway.  Very sad.

Living out of boxes is stupid.

Oh my gosh are you depressed along with me or what!!???

Here are some good things:

Scarlett is crawling.  It started about 2 weeks ago.  She loves it and is getting fast.
Eva went to San Francisco with Clint and had a great time.  One night she missed me and I sang her to sleep over the phone.  (I had a hard time keeping it together so I could sing.)  I sang her The Little Mermaid song, the Sleeping Beauty song and the Snow White song.

Love.

Hello.

I have amazing family and friends who love me and help me.

Thank you!

All is well.

Story of my life.

Scary and hard and sad.

That is the story of my life lately.

There are some happy moments but mostly those things.

The worst is when I actually have time to look around and view where I am it is truly unbelievable.  I can't wrap my head around my whole situation.

I am where I am,
I stand where I stand.
My choices here got,
My choices I'm not.

It's late can you tell?

All I pray for is to grow and listen and learn everyday.  If I am progressing then I am OK.

I am OK.

I am OK.

I am OK.




Good luck.

I think I was tricked into becoming an adult.

Being an adult is way overrated.
I am trying to figure out when my bubble popped and I realized that I was tricked.  All adults make it seem so cool to be adults when you are little.  I think it is a conspiracy.

What I would give to be on Mocha Drive where I grew up playing outside when my only concern was trying to force down the Lima beans my mom would make me eat.

Oh the drama of those Lima beans.

Changes.

I have some big changes happening in my life.
I am scared and worried.
The changes are not fun.
I would love to just write it all out and get everything I feel out of my body but now is not the time plus my words tend to get me into trouble.
So for now I will just post pictures to tell my story rather than words.

Credit for photo a1thriftistorage.com

I am also stressed because with summer ending so did some babysitters I had to watch my girls while I worked.  Now I have to find new situations for my girls and it is hard and frustrating.  Today I wish I didn't have to work ever.

But seriously I am so grateful for my amazing, supportive job.  I am very lucky.

Bye.

Goodbye to summer.

Summer is over, although we are still having hot days here the nights are cool and require a light jacket.

I love fall but I hate summer to end.

Here are some photos from one of my perfect summer days.

I love these girls.

I love the look on her face in this picture.  Perfect water slide face.  She is so excited for what is about to happen.

Home grown.

 I love having chickens.  I think they are so fun.  Not only do they have sweet personalities but they also give you an egg as a little surprise for you to eat.

I recommend everyone own chickens.  They are extremely low maintenance, they help out with the compost by digging and pooping in it and they are sort of pretty to look at.  I also really appreciate the bug control they provide.

The chicken asked for a fancy portrait so here's how it turned out.

I also had another yield.  I made an wonderful salad with all this stuff.

My mini vacation was great.  I checked off one of my life goals!

I saw three movies:  Bridesmaids, My Idiot Brother and Crazy, Stupid, Love

I liked them all.  My Idiot Brother is surprising and not at all what I thought it was.  Let it surprise  you too.

Fun days!

My mom took my girls for 2 nights so I took work off today and am off to do things I normally can't do.

Basically movies.

I hope you have a fun day too.

Here is another fun day I had a while ago.

We made pill hats.

This is one of my favorite pictures of Eva.

Enjoy your weekend.