Scarlett is frustrated.

Scarlett is so frustrated lately with her position in life.

She is trying so hard to crawl and she is so close and she cries out in frustration when she just can't get it right.  

Plus it is a lot of work to try to crawl and she gets tired.

Scarlett also would rather eat food like the rest of us rather than drink her silly bottle or nurse.  

Everything just seems way more exciting then what Scarlett can do.

She wants to run around with her sister and 

play with her cousins and she hates being left out.

It is sad to see her little lower lip curl under 

when she gets her feelings hurt.

And I say, welcome to the club Scarlett, 

we are all frustrated with our position in life.  

Right now you want to be big 

but when you get big you will want to be little again.

You've got to enjoy what you have when you have it.

I am going to try to teach my girls this but 

I think this is something that is learned not taught.

Oh how I love this girl!

I love your position in life right now, Scarlett!

Don't get big!

I don't like hindsight.

This is me in my junior year of high school in my dress for the Sweethearts dance.

(My mom designed and made the dress.  It is red velvet and the white part is layers of lace.  

I loved it and still do.)

You know how when you think back to high school and with the amazing hindsight that you now have and you regret all the wasted time you spent on boys and trying to be cool and boys?

That's how I think it is going to be when we die.  We are going to look back on our lives and actually understand how short and precious our life was and realize how much time we wasted on so many silly, stupid things.

When I think about this future feeling it terrifies me because if feeling it now with all my stupidity and not knowing anything about what comes after this life or the purpose of life imagine how we will feel once we can understand what this life was all about and comprehend how we squandered our time with clothes, TV, trying to be cool, boys, etc.  Just the imagined feeling of regret makes me sick.

Hope that made sense to you.

Have a good day!  Try not to squander it!

Fun things to do in Salt Lake.

We went on a candy factory tour at Sweets candies.
It was fun.
Here are some bad camera pictures for your enjoyment.

We all had to wear hairnets to go on the tour.

Even Scarlett had to wear one except hers was a beard cover.

Isn't she so cute!

And Eva kept wearing hers for a while after.

And then I bought $24 worth of candy.
They sell the mistakes, need I say more?

I have a yield.

I parted my zucchini leaves the other day and found this beautiful surprise.

You can't tell from the picture but it is about 18 inches long.

I am looking for surprises in my garden everyday and the zucchini seemed to suddenly appear.

And those tomatoes are the lovers.

I ate them up and I loverd them.

Scarlett and Eva enjoyed the zucchini as well although Scarlett gave me the "What in the hell are you putting in my mouth?" face.  I will have to try to get a picture of that face.

Grey colored glasses.

I have grey colored glasses on.  

It is not that enjoyable to see the world through grey colored glasses but I can't get them off.  I think they will be with me for a while.

What I am afraid of is the cynicism that comes with them and the lack of faith in...well everything.

I had a friend tell me that to be a good runner I have to learn how to love pain.  It is very true but I also think that it applies to life.
So here is a quote from me for all you people who put quotes on your blogs you can try this one:

"To be good at life, to be happy, to be joyful, to be content, you must learn to love pain."


p.s. Alicia, did I use that semicolon right or should I have just used a period?  I need to know for the millions of people who are going to use my quote.


post edit:  I took out the semi.

She resembles a girl I know.

 I went outside looking for Eva the other day but I found this little girl instead.

This happened because she was playing in the dirt and kept having to move the hair out of her face.
I am trying not to think of all the chicken poop and cat pee that is likely in the dirt.

I asked her to smile so I could get her picture and she leaned against the tree and posed for me.

What I am trying to tell myself today.

What I am trying to tell myself today is:

Everyone has their own path and journey through this life.


Not everyone needs to learn what I am learning, have learned or will learn.


Not everyone will make the same mistakes as I will even if they make the same decisions.


Just because I think I know better doesn't mean I am actually better...or that I actually know better.


To comfort myself I should not think, "Ya, they'll learn and their world will come crashing down and then I will be able to tell them "Told ya" in my mind."


Today I went to a wedding and instead of enjoying myself I didn't enjoy myself.

I review my new Puma Faas 300 running shoes.

Here is an interview I gave about my new running shoes:

Q:  What color are your new shoes?
A:  They are sea foam blue, white and grey with a hint of lime green.

Q:  What do you like best about your new Puma Faas 300 running shoes?
A:  They are really light weight and don't look like the normal nerdy running shoe.


Q:  What do they feel like when you run in them?
A:  It is like wearing a really, really light weight running shoe.


Q:  What do you like second best about your new shoes?
A:  I like that they have a minimal lift.  Some running shoes can have up to an inch and a half lift and I prefer not to run in heels.


Q:  You sound like you are really knowledgeable on the topic.
A:  Well, I'm not.


Q:  Where do you get your knowledge about running shoes?
A:  From running in them and reading about them.


Q:  How many miles have you actually ran in these shoes?
A:  5 miles


Q:  So you really can't recommend these shoes for a marathon yet?
A:  Nope.


Q:  So after your training and actually running the marathon you could absolutely hate these shoes:
A:  Yes.


Q:  Good luck with that.
A:  Maybe we should do this again after my marathon.




I felt that by the end of the interview the interviewer got a little sassy with me and didn't really mean it when she wished me luck.

Here is where you can find more info about my new shoes.  They come in some really fun colors and each store I have found carry a different array of colors so you can get the one that suits you best.  I picked mine because they were the sale colors.  But who doesn't like sea foam?

Look forward to my next interview about being a running mom.  Should be a good one.

My gardening project with photos for your enjoyment.

I garden.
I am a gardener.

Last year I attempted a garden.
It was an extremely pathetic attempt and I gave up half way through the summer and decided that since it was my first try I could fail at it.

This year I enlisted some help of a garden veteran and did much better.
My father-in-law helped me and even custom built me a drip system which is the best thing on earth and in my opinion is the only way to have a successful garden, mind you this is my only successful garden.

I love my garden and I even love weeding it.  It is like a little meditation space for me.

My garden has good energy.

So far I have not come across any grasshoppers.
I am deathly afraid of grasshoppers and I am not kidding.
I will have a hard time entering my garden if I know even one grasshopper is in there.

I took some pictures to show you and since they were a little boring I thought I would artify them a little and play around with my photo editing software for some fun and learning.

Here is my Ahmashzing (it's how you pronounce amazing when you have too much spit in your mouth) photography art:

IF CORN WAS HOT PINK.

The Lovers.  
DO NOT DISTURB!

I think this one is my favorite because it looks like they are whispering sweet nothings to each other and the leaf is keeping us from hearing them.

My carrots are struggling but I hear from my veteran carrots can grow through the winter if I cover them with leaves.  And I have plenty of leaves.

And here is how the naked eye sees my garden. 

My favorite thing so far is the lettuce.  I pick it and it grows right back.  I have had some great salads.  

I also love the cilantro but Eva thinks it is a weed but I always catch her picking it way too late.  The positive about it is when I snuggle her at night I smell cilantro.  Mmmmmmm.

How does this happen?

This is what my kitchen looks like right now.

My dishwasher doesn't work so I have to wash everything by hand.

I don't think I can do it.  

I think I will stay away for a while.

I have no clean bowls or spoons left.

How does it get messy so fast?

I think it has been about 2 days.

Seriously?